Well I over did it... I knew I did... I knew I was going to...
I assumed that if I did more then I should I would be a bit more sore and just a lot more tired... and that's okay I will have to make do... What the reality was that I got up went dizzy almost collapsed and was in pain from head to toe, this carried on the next day too... Lesson learnt.
I thought I would be able to put my family first and me and fibro later but I can't I now understand that it isn't something I can play martyr with I really do need to change my life adapt to a fibromyalgia life.
it means my plans are inevitably going to change.
Plans I will have to scrap include ballet lessons and for the time being my own baking business as I struggle with piping icing.
One plan I had set myself which will not shift though it should but this makes me more determined to do it...
When I was a child I was a competent climber but my fear of heights meant I couldn't abseil back down... I decided when I was pregnant I would do this with my daughter watching so I was doing it for her... well two further children later I have not had opportunity... in October I will have the opportunity and I will be doing it... yes it will hurt but now I am more determined to do it :)
Today I am seeing my GP. I have been left for 2 months in an unbearable amount of pain every day today is the day that changes... I have decided... I try and keep my cool in the Dr's. but I can't any longer they need to know what effect this has on my life, how depressed it makes me...
I know I can live with my condition but I can't do it on my own, I need the aids to be able to cope and one of these aids is the right medication.
Unfortunately Fibromyalgia is not curable but the pain can be managed and that's all I want... Yes I still wont be able to walk to my local bus stop without being in pain and being unbelievably tired but I will be able to just relax pain free at least
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